Not running for the past two-plus weeks has left a hole in my heart to rival the one I developed during my near-divorce. I've lost my appetite along with ten pounds. It took several days before I could see a runner on the street without tearing up. My self-confidence took a dive along with my mood, and moments in this remarkable city that would have once struck me as profoundly beautiful left me feeling empty.
On Tuesday, my
fantastic sports medicine physician ruled out a pelvic stress fracture and ordered immediate, intensive physical therapy (
Update: it was a pelvic stress fracture). At PT, they've adjusted my rotated pelvis (which may have been caused by
my fall at the Brooklyn Half Marathon, the
Vibrams, or any other number of things), given me ultrasound and ice therapy, and taught me stretches and exercises to strengthen the muscles that will prevent my pelvis from slipping out of place again. If all goes well, I can ease back into running in a few weeks. (
Update: no I can't. No running for three months.) My pain is already much improved (as is my mood).
While the hole in my heart is hopefully on the mend, the hole in my back has gotten bigger. A few weeks ago, my new dermatologist noticed a troublesome mole on my back. She took it out - along with some surrounding skin - on Monday. The biopsy showed I have melanoma in situ, which means it fortunately was caught before spreading any further than the mole. Just to be safe, a dermatologic surgeon removed more of the surrounding skin this afternoon. Monday's procedure was quick, painless, and resulted in four little stitches. Today's, by contrast, was unexpectedly more intense, with two layers of stitches (seventeen total), lots of tugging, and electric cauterization.


In my heart of hearts, I knew something was wrong with this mole. In the two weeks leading up to my first biopsy, I hoped for the best but braced for the worst. Just when I had convinced myself that the stress-relieving and health-promoting powers of running would be the key to fighting whatever came my way, my pelvis decided it had other plans for me. A running injury any other time would have been lamentable; this seemed devastating.
I am so grateful to the doctors, nurses, and physical therapists who have helped me fight my recent two-front health battle. Words cannot describe how supportive my husband and the few close friends I've confided in have been. I am so fortunate. Readers, thank you for hanging in there with me as I've been posting only sporadically. Now that I'm on the road to recovery, I've regained the inspiration to write again.
xoxo.
Kate